Nyengo Yolakwika ntchito yapadera 'Sentient Manifestation' yokhala ndi lingaliro, mayendedwe aluso & kujambula ndi Predrag Pajdic ndi zolemba za JL Nash. Nkhani yodabwitsayi idajambulidwa ku Porto Old Cemetery sitolo yotsatira Wrong Weather. Zovala zonse kuchokera ku SS12 WW kusankha : Armando Cabral, Stephan Schneider, Dries Van Noten, Wrong Weather, Common Projects, YMC, One-T-Shirt, L.G.R. ndi March Lab.
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Pamene ankapita kumanda akale, adatenga nthawi kuti ayime kuti ayang'ane mayina ndi masiku osiyanasiyana, kukhudza maluwa ndi miyala yopangidwa ndi miyala mpaka adawona nyumba kutsogolo, kumapeto kwa njirayo. Osati kuti adzakumbukira konse koma kugunda kwa mtima wake kunafulumira ndipo mapazi anacheperachepera mpaka iye anadutsa mu danga lodzaza ndi kuwala. Denga lalitali lokhala ndi malo osungiramo zinthu ngati mazenera anatsanulira kuwala pa mapewa ake ndipo anagona pansi kuti asambe ndi mphamvu ya dzuŵa, kudziwotcha yekha pakati pa mithunzi ya akufa.
Zitha kukhala kuti zinali mphindi zingapo, zikadakhala ola limodzi koma nthawi idasowa mozungulira chitseko ichi ndipo atatsegula maso ake, chiwonetsero chake chidayima pafupi ndi iye, ndikumuyang'ana. Poganiza kuti akulota, anadzigwedeza koma akuyang'ana uku sanaonenso khomo lomwe adalowamo ndipo adatembenuka ndikuyesa kuyankhula.
Kunena kuti ndinauzidwa ndi munthu wina wakale wa gypsy, usiku wina pamene nyali inawala m'maso mwa ana otalika kwambiri kuchokera pa mabedi awo, kuti ndiyenera kuyembekezera inu, lingakhale bodza lopangidwa kuti lidzitalikitse kutali ndi kudabwa komwe kumatumikira. pa nthawi yozindikirika. Koma, sindikanakudziwani bwanji? Pali gawo lina la ine lomwe silili bwino ndikuwopa kuti mudzandiyang'ana ndikundidziwa, koma mukundidziwa kale. Ndiyo mfundo yake. Mumandidziwa nonse ndipo ngakhale ndili ndi chidwi ndikuwona kukongola komwe ndimakhulupirira, mumagwiranso zonyansa zomwe ndikuganiza ndikubisa. Kodi ndinaponya ndalama zachitsulo, kujambula mandala; kuyesera kuyitanira osamwalira kapena kutsimikizira kuti mukudziwa mwakachetechete? Pamene ndimalowa mkati mwa makoma awa, mocheperapo ndi mbiri yawo yodabwitsa, ndi matsenga ena onyansa ndidapanga kugawa kwa anthu? Mbalame zidakali ndipo mphepo yatsika. Ngakhale kuwala kwadzuwa kumalowa m'mazenera ngati kuti akuyendetsedwa ndi siteji ndipo muli nane, chikumbutso chokhazikika kuti mwina pali china chake ndipo ngati ndi choncho, mukuyembekezera kuti ndikulereni, ndikudyetsani? Kodi ndinu lonjezo la zina zambiri kapena kuledzera kowoneka bwino, malingaliro abwino a yemwe ndikuganiza kuti ndiyenera kukhala?
Chodabwitsa chokhudza malingaliro ndi chakuti chimaphatikizapo kuthekera kwamkati mwa munthu kuti athe kupeza chidziwitso ndipo mpaka munthu atayang'anizana ndi munthu woteroyo kapena kumvetsetsa, lingaliro lililonse la ungwiro kapena chiyero kapena ngakhale kukongola limaipitsidwa ndi mikhalidwe ya thupi ndi moyo uno- boma. Iye ankaganiza kuti anaona mapiko a angelo kuchokera m’mapewa a mkokomo wa chifaniziro chake ndipo ankadziwa kuti m’mphepete mwa nthengazo zinkaoneka ngati zaphimbidwa.
Pamene ndikudziwa kwambiri kuti mpweya wanu ndi mpweya wanga ndikufuna kuti ndikukumbatireni, ndikugwireni; idyani kuti ndikubwezereni ku gawo la ine lomwe sindingathe kuliganizira. Mwina ndi tchimo kukhala wodya moyo, chitsiriziro chosakhala chachirengedwe koma ndi inu pano; chachikulu kuposa moyo, chitsimikiziro changa cha ena onse, opangidwa thupi ndipo mulimonse, ndingayambire kuti? Mchitidwe wachikondi. Chimene chimafunika ndi kuchita zinthu mwachikondi. Komabe palibe phokoso la mbalame ndi mlengalenga ngati mmene ndinalowa pamalo ano. Kodi ndili ku puligatoriyo wodekha, wachete? Ndipo ngati itero, ndinafa liti? Chifukwa chiyani sindikudziwa ngati ndili pano kapena apo ndipo chifukwa chiyani mawu anga samamveka pa kugunda kwa mtima wanga? Ndikufuna kuti mundiuze, lankhulani ndi ine, mundiululire, chilichonse koma osalankhula mawu opitilira milomo yanga ndipo mafunso chikwi amagwa chifukwa ndikuwona gawo labwino kwambiri la ine lilipo losiyana koma ndimakhala ndi kulumikizana kosawoneka, umbilical. kumverera. Ndikukumva.
Ngati mukukumana ndi moyo wanu mu nthawi yachilendo portal onetsetsani kuti pokonzekera muli ndi mafunso chikwi kufunsa; onetsetsani kuti mwawabwereza mpaka atakhala chete chifukwa ndizotheka kuti nthawiyo ungwiro ndi kukongola - zenizeni za ungwiro ndi kukongola, ndiko kuti, zanu, zikuwonetsedwa, mudzadzazidwa ndi chikondi. Chilichonse chamoyo kapena chakufa chidzamveka ngati frangipanis wokoma kwambiri, maluwa ofatsa kwambiri kapena m'mphepete mwa mng'oma wa njuchi ndipo mudzayiwala mafunso anu.
Kumayambiriro kwa kuzindikira uku kwa ungwiro wanu wonse, mphamvu zanu zonse, mphamvu zanu. Ndikulakalaka, ndilibe kanthu popanda inu ndipo sitilankhula. Inu ndi mapiko anu oyaka ndi ine ndi moyo wanga sunakhale ndi moyo. Ndimakukondani, moyo wanga, kugunda kwa mtima wanga. Ndimakukondani.
Fungo la kukongola kwake mosakayikira ndilo chinthu chimodzi chomwe chinagonjetsa mphamvu zake ndi kugunda kwa mtima wake kunasonkhanitsa mphamvu pamene mapiko a moyo wake adamuzinga, pamene kugunda kwa mtima wa kulimba mtima kwake kunakula kwambiri ndi mawonekedwe a mphamvu zonse zomwe adanyamula, kugwedeza. thupi lake mpaka panalibenso kusiyana pakati pa awiriwo.
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Mkonzi/nkhani yapaderadera yopangidwa ndi Wrong Weather.
Ndili ndi Edir & Hugo Rodrigues ochokera ku Elite Lisbon
Mothandizidwa ndi Christina Miguel & Darius Meibodi
Lingaliro, Mayendedwe Aluso & Kujambula: © Predrag Pajdic, 2012
Zolemba: © J. L. Nash, 2012
