Imozulu engalunganga ikhomishini ekhethekileyo 'Ukubonakaliswa kweSentient' kunye nengcamango, isikhokelo sobugcisa kunye nokufota ngu-Predrag Pajdic kunye nombhalo ka-J. L. Nash. Eli bali haunted kwaba ukudubula Porto endala Cemetery nje elandelayo Wrong Weather ivenkile. Zonke iimpahla ezivela kwi-SS12 WW ukhetho : Armando Cabral, Stephan Schneider, Dries Van Noten, Imozulu engalunganga, iiProjekthi eziqhelekileyo, i-YMC, i-T-Shirt enye, i-L.G.R. kunye neLebhu kaMatshi.
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Njengoko wenza indlela yakhe nangona amangcwaba amadala, wathatha ixesha lakhe lokunqumama ukujonga amagama ahlukeneyo kunye nemihla, iintyatyambo ezichukumisayo kunye nokwakheka kwamatye de wabona isakhiwo ngaphambili, ekupheleni kwendlela. Ayikuko ukuba angakhumbula kodwa ukubetha kwentliziyo yakhe kwakhawuleza kwaye neenyawo zaye zakhanya de wadlulela kwindawo egcwele ukukhanya. Isilingi ephakamileyo enendawo yokugcina izinto enjengeefestile zagalela ukukhanya phezu kwamagxa akhe waza walala phantsi ukuze ahlambe amandla elanga, ezihlaziya phakathi kwethunzi labafi.
Inokuba yimizuzu embalwa, inokuba yiyure kodwa ixesha lanyamalala kule portal kwaye xa evula amehlo akhe, umfanekiso wakhe wema kufutshane naye, umjongile. Ebecinga ukuba usephupheni wazidlikidla kodwa uthe akulaqaza akaba sawubona umnyango engene ngawo wajikela kuye wazama ukuthetha.
Ukutsho ukuba ndixelelwe yi-gypsy endala, ngobusuku obunye xa ukukhanya kwesibane kwadanyaza emehlweni abantwana ixesha elide kwiibhedi zabo, ukuba ndingakulindela, ibiya kuba bubuxoki obenzelwe ukuzihlukanisa nokungamangalisi okusebenzayo. kweli nqanaba lokuqatshelwa. Kodwa, njani ukuba ndingakwazi? Kukho inxenye yam engonwabanga kwaye ndoyika ukuba uya kundijonga kwaye undazi, kodwa sele uyenzile. Nantso ingongoma. Niyandazi nonke kwaye ngelixesha ndirhalela ukububona obubuhle ndikholelwa kubo, nawe ubambe obobubi endicinga ukuba ndiyabufihla. Ngaba ndiphose iingqekembe zemali, ndizoba iimandala; ukuzama ukufowunela abantu abangafanga okanye ukudibanisa ukwazi kwakho ukuthi cwaka? Njengoko ndandingena phakathi kwezi ndonga, ndigqwethwa yimbali yazo entle, ngomlingo othile ombi ndidale ulwahlulo lomlinganiswa? Iintaka zimile kwaye umoya wehlile. Nditsho nemitha yelanga ingena ngeefestile ngokungathi ilawulwa yiqonga kwaye ulapha kunye nam, isikhumbuzo sobuchule bokuba mhlawumbi kukho into engaphezulu kwaye ukuba kunjalo, ulindele ukuba ndikukhulise, ndikukondle? Ngaba usisithembiso sento engaphezulu okanye ukunxila okubonakalayo, umbono oqinisekileyo wokuba ngubani endicinga ukuba ndifanele ukuba nguye?
Into engaqhelekanga ngovakalelo kukuba luquka amandla kabani angaphakathi okuzuza ukukhanyiselwa aze ade ajamelane nomntu onjalo okanye ukuqonda, nayiphi na ingcamango yokugqibelela okanye ukucoceka okanye kwanobuhle yonakaliswa ziimeko zenyama nobu bomi— ilizwe. Wayecinga ukuba wabona amaphiko engelosi emagxeni alo msindo ofana naye kwaye wayeqonda ukuba iincam zeentsiba zibonakala zixakile.
Njengoko ndisiya ndiqonda ngakumbi ukuba umoya wakho ngumphefumlo wam ndifuna ukukuwola, ndikubambe; ndikutye ukuze ndikubuyisele kwindawo yam endingenako ukuyicinga. Mhlawumbi kusisono ukuba ngumntu otya umphefumlo, ukufezekiswa okungaqhelekanga kodwa naku wena; ezinkulu kunobomi, ubungqina bam bazo zonke ezinye, zenziwe inyama kwaye kunjalo, ndandiza kuqala ngaphi? Isenzo sothando. Into efunekayo sisenzo sothando. Kusenjalo akukho sandi siphuma ezintakeni nasesibhakabhakeni njengoko ndandingena kule ndawo. Ngaba ndikwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo ethe cwaka? Ukuba kunjalo, ndife nini? Kutheni ndingazazi ukuba ndilapha okanye ndilapha kwaye kutheni ilizwi lam lingavakali phezu kokubetha kwentliziyo yam? Ndifuna ukuba undixelele, uthethe nam, undityhilele, nantoni na kodwa akukho magama adlulayo emilebeni yam kwaye iwaka lemibuzo iyawa njengoko ndibona eyona ndawo igqibeleleyo kum yahluke ngokupheleleyo kodwa isenonxibelelwano olungabonakaliyo, lwe-umbilical. yiva. Ndiyakuvela.
Ukuba ujongene nomphefumlo wakho ngexesha elithile elingaqhelekanga portal qiniseka ukuba ekulungiseleleni unewaka lemibuzo onokuyibuza; qiniseka ukuba ukhe waziqhelanisa nazo de zibe zicwangcisiweyo kuba kunokwenzeka ngakumbi ukuba umzuzu ukugqibelela kunye nobuhle - eyona nto ilungileyo yokugqibelela kunye nobuhle, oko kukuthi, eyakho, ibonakaliswe, uya kugutywa luthando. Yonke into ephilayo okanye efileyo iya kunuka njengeyona frangipanis imnandi, iirozi ezithambileyo okanye umphetho wenyosi yenyosi kwaye uya kuyilibala imibuzo yakho.
Ekuqalekeni koku kuqonda ukugqibelela kwakho ngokupheleleyo, amandla akho onke, amandla akho. Ndiyakurhalela, andinamntu ngaphandle kwakho kwaye sisathetha. Wena ngamaphiko akho avuthayo kunye nam nobomi bam obungekaphili. Ndiyakuthanda, mphefumlo wam, ukubetha kwentliziyo yam. Ndiyakuthandana.
Ivumba lobuhle bakhe ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo yinto enye eyamongamela iimvakalelo zakhe kwaye ukubetha kwentliziyo yakhe kwaqokelela umfutho njengoko amaphiko omphefumlo wakhe amsongayo, njengoko ukubetha kwentliziyo yenkalipho yakhe kwakuya komelela kunye nokubunjwa kwazo zonke izinto ezinokuthi zithwale, ziphulule. inyama yakhe kwada akwabakho mahluko phakathi kwabo bobabini.
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Umhleli/ibali elikhethekileyo eligunyaziswe yiMozulu engalunganga.
Ndikunye no-Edir & Hugo Rodrigues ovela kwi-Elite Lisbon
Uncediswa nguChristina Miguel kunye noDarius Meibodi
Ingqikelelo, iNdlela yoBugcisa kunye nokufota: © Predrag Pajdic, 2012
Umbhalo: © J. L. Nash, 2012
